i will miss...

I won't miss my car, my house, or my money

But I will miss those that made life so enjoyable and funny

I will miss getting hugs by my mom and dad

Their constant love, even when I made them mad

 I will miss my sister whose also my best friend

Her love, honesty, and loyalty, no one can contend

  I will miss my dog (I know I'm a loser) and his constant joy 

His high-pitched bark of excitement was no ploy

 I will miss my church and all their encouragement and support

They will be in my thoughts and prayers from port to port

  I will miss all my friends I've made over the years

They’ve made me laugh, cry, and conquer many fears

 Yet even though I will be missing all these things and more

There is something greater that I am living for

  I know there will be someone with me all the time

Jesus is in my heart and through him I will shine

 This truth will keep my eyes ahead

To glorify Him and follow what He said

  To help the poor, the widow, and oppressed

To give hope to those that have less than less

 Lord be my strength when I am weak

Help me to find those that need to be reached

  Lord keep me on my toes for the evil that surrounds

By prayer and petition I won't let him take me down

 Into the unknown I’ll strap on my shoes

To go and tell those who don't know the Good News



After this past weekend with family and friends my heart aches and breaks with the many sad good byes but heals and strengthens as I push toward going to serve God.  Annie and Greg's wedding was unforgettable.  Catching up with family and friends was so comforting.  Hugging and saying good-bye to my new brother in law and expanded family was hard.  But crying and hugging my Mom, Dad, and Annie goodbye was the hardest thing I have had to do in a very VERY long time.  

As I traveled from Boston to Texas over the next 6 hours I pretty much cried the whole time (the poor girl in the seat next to me on the plane probably thought I was suicidal.... opps).  During one break down I prayed and asked God " I love my family and friends. Why am I doing this? Why is this so hard?" I then decided I needed to get my mind off of all this "sad stuff" so I opened up a book.  The first paragraph read:

 " True love for Jesus will always choose Him when faced with an alternative.  If, for example, Jesus calls someone to the mission field, then for Jesus sake he leaves his naive land.  This could involve separation from loved ones.  Love for one's country and family has to take second place."  My All for Him

After reading this I started chuckling to myself at Gods perfect timing of comfort and encouragement.  (At the point the lady sitting next to me is thinking I should be admitted to a psych ward... cry, laugh, cry, laugh) 

Please continue to keep my family and myself in your prayers. Also on July 12th one of my friends and coworkers, Bill, unexpectedly passed away, please be praying for my Ellison 18 family and also his family and friends.  Last prayer request please be praying for my fellow trainees as they go off to say good-bye to their many loved ones.  

Thank you again for all of your prayers and emails they have definitely have been felt and very appreciated!




Jamie said...

LOVE your poem.... so good! And so happy that I get to do Africa with you!!

Lynette said...

What a beautiful poem, Becca! You have many talents! Good luck this week -- your training sounds difficult. -Lynette

thomas-taylor said...

Sinclair Ferguson once shared that, as our days on earth draw to an end, we will likely shed tears, not for what we gave up in this life, but that we didn't do more in response to the love and grace we have been shown in Christ. You have chosen well!

larryk13 said...

wow, becca, what an amazing poem! and yes, it is hard to miss anyone who has been in and touched your life in some way. i wish you the best and hope you do well down in the DR.
(and keep writing poetry, you are darn good at it:)

larry k

Mom Taylor said...

Becca we love you and miss you too. Be assured we are praying for you and thinking of you everyday. I hope you have a wonderful time in the D.R. Looks like you might have a bit of rain down there; just checked out the 10 Day of Weather.com. Rain is in the forecast here too. AND in Puerto Vallarta, where Annie and Greg are honeymooning.. :( But we know we have a light that shines through all kinds of "rain"! So glad you have made Jesus king of your heart. He is the light that truly makes each day sunshiny.